I mean so close to finitti, so very close … I’m not quite sure WHAT else to possibly do to her. But yet I feel the need to sit back and make doubly sure. I finished the shadowes and the waves and had to completely redo the foremountain, because I mistakenly added all this lively lime detail which was awesome and true to the photo but not to the painting, so had to rub her out with a totally new green. Quite scary and had to act quickly with the paint drying on me with the new details. EEP!
Can you believe it? more ridiculously awful details from preschool age abuse with the Namelesses last night and with someone who I was babysitting FOR. Just awful, but I journalled and was able to get to sleep around midnight. But flashing today when I try to rest, hence the early painting. Painting helped to have something tangible to do.
Incredibly fatigued, however. Plagued. Thankfully I see my counselor tomorrow. I do wonder that folks wonder if and why more details are needed but hell if I know why the Namelesses did these things to me in such detail in the first place. That is why I have so frickin many alters is because I had to split to hold all the frickin pieces. So. Sigh.
Trying to get Rebekah’s Closet in on consignment in local bookstores. Fingers crossed. She is a good read. Hoping so for others as well. Will let you know.
Thankfully I have lots of things going on and to look forward to in the present, eh? Great music, fun clothes to wear (silly, I know but I do love them, very silly of me), and it is Summer (though I do look forward to Fall). The pool has been quite full since I was there. Hoping to Sun myself more when it is less busy again soon. Work on the tan. Heh.
The VW Bug gets an oil change and the leak gets looked into finally on Wed am — very much looking forward to taking care of the Bee — for she takes care of me – whoosh! Yay! Otherwise, counseling and a free week — no pt! Next week I can get my hair cut! Yay! I’ve been doing all sorts of side swipey things with it lately to hide the longish nature of it.
Very hot today indeed. Good for naps. Will try and rest for a bit with the new Therapearls (TM) and the IPod. Last night it was Port of Morrow by The Shins and Ali Farka Toure and Ry Cooder. Hurrah!
