Hana Beach, Maui – IX

 

 

 

DSC_4515Here with Titanium White, not Zinc White, I’ve painted in the edges of the sea lacing up to the sand, cliffs and rocks. I used very tiny round brush for this detail work, because I didn’t trust the larger tiny round.

Then, I went back in with the two darkest shades of sea, to add depth here and there, then back with more white. I also thought of motion. The ocean is sufficiently wild for me.

Next will be the clouds, and final detail/balancing, and she will be done!

Today we went to pick up a flugelhorn which Jason is fixing up for resale and met a friend for coffee and lunch.

I have not felt well at all today. Like I have a cold. I rested when I came home for a significant period of time.

Yesterday my counselor hipped me to some great free (free!) apps for the IPhone, for meditation and stress reduction, which have been great for me, and I found more last night: just type in Meditation and see what you find basically, but Mindfulness TS and Omvana are two great ones. I also found a great meditation timer with bells and chimes, and 500 Buddhist sayings. Like a free goldmine, it is.

And I do need the relief, for yesterday I was unusually weepy, like I could cry at the drop of a hat. That’s not like me at all. Usually I have several layers of concrete walls or something that keep me from feeling … or something … right? Not yesterday. I was so fragile. We determined about 6 or 7 things that it could be … but the thing on top was this: in the middle of the night I emailed my surgeon and he had emailed me back (well, it was 9:30 pm, the middle of the night for me, you see) saying, the reason why your hips hurt at night is very common among patients receiving major lower back surgery — you most likely have bursitis in both hips.

OH, no.

Hell, no.

He said, right? Injections are the last option, right? Hell, no, I thought.

I can show you some exercises. Yes, I thought. I love that.

Ice them up. Yes. I’m all over that, although that is limited in effectiveness.

So. So.

So I don’t know if it’s temporary or what. He said in his email that it’s because the muscles have tightened over the hips. I see him on 6/20. He said I can see him before if I need to, but I’m a try to hold out.

But, that’s like all my major joints now. Effing a.

Okay, whatever. I’m much better emotionally today? I mean, I had the free app Nature sounds mixed to three at a time which really worked out a good soup of venting for a while there: whales, stormy waves and meditation bell … oh yeah.

Hell.

I mean I was doing so well. I just thought it was like I was walking too much or something. Maybe it is something that yoga can fix in time. I do hope so. Good Lord Buddha.

Please.

It hurts a lot.

The alters still come frequently and my counselor asked me what I’ve been doing and I feel like I’ve been running this week, I’ve been feeling so well. So I really need to rest more and meditate. Take things more slowly, be more in moment with the alters and breathe. And it’s time to start writing on the novel, it’s been stirring in my mind like a spook for days now. National Novel Writing Month has July on the books so I’m a sign up but I want to get busy as a bee way before then.

That’s all I’m a say for now.

Other than that, it’s beautiful, a beautiful time of year. I’m blessed, right? I am. 🙂

 

About amyjacksoncc

I am a professional artist, writer and musician creating from my home studio. To view my artwork, visit http://www.amyjackson.cc
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