I’m sitting here typing on my iPhone for the blog today at the moment as it were and
That there is an old version of the current painting … I’m currently much farther in painting in a hooker”a green background with a very small brush … In jungle random code of course.
Yesterday also the weather somewhat permitted light-wise for me to take twenty seven industrial fotos at one of my two Nashville (read only) sites. Hooray! More to come on those.
Yesterday I sat in the studio and felt so alive as an artist, so fulfilled, so challenged in an ongoing wave kind of way. That being said I don’t snap to tasks as I once did which I see as crises in functionality and depressive moments I have to overcome, not things to be forced. I do very much believe in excellence and discipline but cannot force any activity or behavior in myself at all lest I get major headaches and chaotic upheavals in side.. Not worth the trouble.
But just the same resisting the impulse to create or eat or go outside or rest … Be active… Just as difficult to resist… I am overcome with that thing.
There is an edginess that I’m by habit used to ? But not ? And not liking but understand that I can be overcome at any moment …. A built in now or habitual insecurity…
Well … I’ve got to stop for now but want to just check and chat for a while… About my inner world…
Take care 🙂
